Happy Birthday

I hope.

I hope wherever you are now, you’re as happy as you were in this picture.

I hope you’re not scared or suffering anymore.

I hope your soul is at peace.

I wish.

Oh, I wish you could see how loved you were.

I wish you could see how you were the tie that binded so many of us together….and how it’s fallen apart in your absence.

I wish you wouldn’t have waited to get help. To follow up. To listen.

But above all, I just wish you were still here.

I remember.

I remember you so clearly in my head, the color of your eyes, each scar and wrinkle. The shape of your hands. It doesn’t feel right when I picture you in my head and it is only a memory. I hope I don’t forget.

I feel the gravity of your absence more with each passing day.

Happy Birthday.