The Gary Sinice Foundation is an INCREDIBLE organization that honors the families of fallen soldiers every year by taking surviving spouses and their children on an all-expense paid trip to Disney World. No expense has been spared and every minute detail has been accounted for right down to pre-provided luggage tags so you don't have... Continue Reading →


Dating is hard, dating as a young widow is even harder. It's as if I have a scarlet "W" branded into my forehead, and usually when people here I'm a suicide widow, they turn tail and run for the hills. Believe it or not, I've actually had people blame me for my husband's death or... Continue Reading →


The shower is a funny place. We sing it it, think deep thoughts it in. We cry in it. I cried in the shower a lot growing up. The water would muffle my sobs, and I'm sure in some dramatic teenage way of thinking, I'd symbolically relate the water raining down on me as a... Continue Reading →

Parenting Through Grief

Tonight about an hour after being put to bed, Luke came into my room crying. He told me "I just don't understand why my dad had to die". How do I tell him? That Sean didn't have to die. In a way, he chose to die. Of course, I don't tell him. Luke is not... Continue Reading →


I had my first experiance with a medium a few months ago. I tossed around the idea of seeing one, just to see what would happen. They've always facinated me, as a child I used to watch Sylvia Brown on The Montel Williams Show and every now and then I still watch The Long Island... Continue Reading →

Are You Ok?

As I sit in the waiting room of my therapist's office while Luke finishes his appointment (I got waitlisted this week)I am looking positively mierable. A woman sitting across from me asks "Are you ok?" "Oh yeah, just tired" I say, fighting to hold back tears. Because I am not ok. I am tired, it's... Continue Reading →

Grief Personified

Unless you've been living under a rock, chances are you've probably already watched, or at least heard of Netflix's new horror thriller The Haunting of Hill House. Is it a remake? yes. Is it any good? Here are my thoughts; The Haunting of Hill House was a feels trip I was not prepared to take.... Continue Reading →

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